For you...

(I wrote this on April 8,2010)


I don't know where to find you
and where to look for you
Since you've been gone, 
I feel so lost
I don't know what to do


I keep looking out my window
From where you'd always call
its been one month , 
you still haven't come
Don't you miss me at all?


I miss the hugs, I miss the laughs
The secrets that we shared
But your support, 
I miss the most
I feel weak and scared.


I miss the fights, I miss being laughed at
I miss being ordered about
And I miss seeing mom scold you
when i would cry and shout. 
I miss your love, I miss the talks
there's so much I miss about you
I miss being the baby
I miss being protected
I feel so insecure,  I need you.


I hide my tears, I try to be strong
For you, For mom and dad
But I wish you were here right now
to hug, to make me understand.


I hope you're happy wherever you are
And you're spreading love, like you always did,
You are always in our hearts
Your memories, we'll always cherish.


I hope you know that I love you
Even though I never told you so.
You're the best Dear brother ,
But I guess God loved you more...